Missing you...

It wasnt ur time
It wasnt ur luck,
Still u had 2 go
It wasnt worth a buck.

So many r fighting
But they didnt fall,
U also wanted 2 stay
But it was His call.

U left us shocked
U left us alone,
Ur memories r evrywhere
Although u r gone.

U have chosen dreams
To talk with me like before,
Please come back in reality
Cant live without u anymore.

You

Don't know how to explain it
Can't really put it into words
You've touched my life in so many ways
You never cease to amaze me.

I don't know what the future holds
I can't pretend that I do
I just know beyond a doubt
I always want you around.

Whether we stay the closest of friends
Or I become the love of your life
Or maybe even both occurs
As long as your in my life I can smile.

Something about you makes me smile
Not just with my mouth
And not just with my eyes
But all the way to my soul.

Thank you for what you are to me
For being who you are
And adding happiness to this life
And giving me a reason to smile.

Wateva...

Present time is for fcukin bad ppl...good ppl fcukin perishin outta nowhere...and bad ppl fcukin enjoyin like fcukin crazy...this fcukin world is getting more n more fcukin insane day by day...dats the fcukin truth if u fcukin ask me...so only 2 fcukin ways...either be fcukin asshole or be fcukin ready 2 get ditched and betrayed n all fcukin stuff for the rest of ur fcukin life wich is gonna be very fcukin short...

Dad,,,

Happy Birthday Dad...not being with Mum and u on ur b'days hurts...Missing the treats I used 2 get on ur b'days :)

Su...

Missing u Su...wish I was in Kol coz of u...u've given me the best memories of my Life...we both agreed that any "boyfriend-girlfriend" would feel jealous on seeing our relation :P ...so simple yet so deep...so down-to-earth yet so intense...muahh...(not the bf-gf one...much much more intense than that)...tc always...and never change...I m comin 2 disturb u very soon !!! Lolz !!!

Relief

Yes !!! I've done it...darr ke agey jeet hain...I've overcome one of my biggest fears...BET...or rather they did it 4 me...Thank you God...thank u Grandpa...thanks 4 makin my life simpler...u r with me...so now I can win the world...CHEERIO !!!

Wanna go back in time

Life has changed forever. Its never gonna be the same. Was never more alone. Lost someone very very close so suddenly and tragically that Heart refuses to believe it even now. Old days...prick a lot recently. I wanna go back 2 those days. Please. Please. Please.

LOVE vs LIFE

Love is such a beautiful feeling
They say true love is felt only once.
Life is such a precious gift
And when gone it never comes back.
When you fall in love
You feel you are the happiest person.
But when you lose someone close
You feel nobody is more hurt.
At the advent of new love
You seem to have achieved everything.
At the departure of your close one
You seem to have lost everything.
If there isn't life how can there be love?
If there isn't love why would you want to live?
Love and life are so interdependent
Like two sides of a coin unbiased.
Both teaches us to be a better person
Both teaches us how to care.
Both teaches us to trust and understand
Both teaches us how to share.
Man is mortal but true love is not
Love and life are one and the same,
Love is the feeling life is the game.
So to control both of them,
Live without fear love without shame.

CONFUSION...

It is almost the end of the 2nd semester in my college. Just 2 exams more 2 go. I wont say that my 1st yr and everything related 2 it is gonna end after that. That’s coz I’m gonna flunk this time,flunk like HELL. In the first sem, I was myself, like most of the times in my dull past. In 2nd sem, I decided 2 be like others, like a college going student. I wanted 2 try 2 be unlike me and thot I would be ready to face its consequences. I started mixing with ppl to a huge extent. Started going out much more often. Started drinkin occasionally. Started indulging myself in a relationship. Started 2 think that I hav the capacity 2 manage studies at the last hour. Wanted 2 feel what being COOL is all about. I hav succeeded in my trial but my primary cause has been defeated. I have given the worst final exam of my life. What shud I do? I am kinda enjoyin this new life. This is probably one of the best 6 months in my life. But what about studies? Is it like if I enjoy then that wud cost my studies? No, enuf is enuf. I cant flunk in exams like this. When evry1 says their exam went nice I gotta make sure that mine is also nice. Sometimes I think that these luxuries may also be enjoyd later but only if I control my studies properly. Cant rejoice at the cost of studies. Shall I become a nerd like before? A question which has stolen my night’s sleep and continue to bother me so frequently. Why cant I be like ppl who manage both studies and partying? WhY Why WHY ???

WHY ARE WE BORN ???

They say God never sends anyone to earth without a purpose. Everybody has their own purpose. Very shortly after we are born the orthodox system of education is impinged upon us. As we grow we develop our ambitions in addition to our hobbies. They vary immensely from person to person. But that does not mean that the ambition and/or hobby of one person is cheaper than those of others. Our parents play a very important part in out life when we are growing. Their guidance and degree of discipline influences our life directly. Now parents are also of largely varying types and so are their procedures of imparting discipline. Some parents are practical and learn to respect their child’s decisions and are with their child in his/her bad times. Others want their child to do everything and be everything which they want them to be or which they wanted to be but could not fulfill it. We are born to study, study a lot. But hey, everyone studies and everyone gets good or bad marks. Does it really seggregate one from the rest? The answer is a big no. I think we are born mainly for relations and the beauty of it. There are many relations in this world which are very special for us. Even the feeling of it makes us proud. Relations are built on trust and mutual understanding. Once they cease to exist so does the relation. Now relations can be between any two persons. It can be in the form of a parent, friend, lover etc etc. From great relations come sacrifices and undertaking risks. When we don’t care a shit about ourselves and do anything to satisfy or protect our loved ones then only we are truly respecting the relation. And the happiness we get from that is priceless. The pureness of the relation makes us wait for chances where we can be of any use for their smiles. One such relation is love as in boyfriend girlfriend relation. Love has become a lot artificial and superficial these days but that does not take away the true meaning of love from it. Love means to care for someone, to make someone’s feelings your own. It means to do anything and everything to make him/her happy. We always keep thinking about our loved ones and seek opportunities to prove our love to them. And when we are able to do something we get on cloud number 9. The same applies for all close relations among loved ones. I don’t know about others but I think I am born to make good relations and perform them selflessly. I think I am born to win trust and love of people and that will make me different from them who think they are born to make money or have sex or become a doctor or whatever. When you are aware that someone is feeling secure and happy because of you u feel you are at the top of the world. From loving comes missing. When we are away from our loved ones we understand the meaning of missing. Missing means to suffer due to the lack of proximity of your loved one. Is their any better thing in the world than to have great relations ??? Everything else is temporary and can be spent and does not last long. But this is really an exception. This famous poem is dedicated to all my known ones who are NOT enjoying relation(s) built on understanding,care,trust and love……

Duniya mein kitni hain nafratein...

Phir bhi dilo main hain chahatey.

Mar bhi jaaye pyaar waale...

Mit bhi jaaye yaar waale....

Zinda rehti hain unki mohabbatein.

FOR SOMEONE WHO WAS SPECIAL

Dont love me for fun girl
Lemme be your one girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love...

If you are reading this,then I have only one thing to say,
If I know you well enough you ARE suffering for that decision,
And I DO know you well enough......

Expectations out of nowhere

When I dont expect anything from anyone and people can see that clearly,why do they still attach their expectations with me? They just do not seem to see that I am not interested in fulfilling their expectations. And when I fulfill an expectation they seem to assume that they have enslaved me,and I have no business or interest in meeting their desires. And when I do not or am unable to fulfill their expectation,they think that I am the most cruel and insane person in the world,forgetting in one nanosecond that he himself has never been asked for anything by me,forgetting the previous favours which I have met selflessly. The world is really very cruel,getting more and more cruel day by day, and I am getting more and more clueless how to go about it. A strong feeling of hatred from the burden of expectations of people surrounding me is engulfing me day by day and I seem to lose my soul in it.

Why me?

Why am I the one to target?

Why am I the one to torment?

Do I deserve all of these?

Or is it just an indication I am failing to interpret?

People face a lot of failures in their life

Failures are a part of life

Nobody can deny that

Neither can I and neither will I

But mistakes should not be repeated

That’s a very important thing

And I fail to follow it

Bad things happen with everyone

Bad things happen with me

But they don’t repeat themselves

And I am the exception

Don’t know why I cant understand the insides

What’s it that I am expected to interpret

May be I should think more

May be I should try more

Then I will get what I desire

Then I wont get what I don’t desire

TRUE FRIEND

There was a time when I needed a friend,
By God's grace got the best in the end.
Who used to make me laugh when I was sad,
To have u as a friend who wont be glad.
You have been there with me so far,
Still can't tell how special you are.

You were always there when I needed you,
What I wanted you always knew.
You were the one who understood me well,
Turned my life to heaven from hell.
In moonless nights u were my star,
Still can't tell how special you are.

What I like you knew before me,
My happiness is all you wanted to see.
Whatever I thought you would come to know,
You were there to stop my tears flow.
You prevented my life from turning bizzare,
Still can't tell how special you are.

You are caring,you are sweet,
The best person I could ever meet.
You are smart,you are cool,
Your company is always wonderful.
Can't imagine a life without you
That's how special for me are YOU.

WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO?

I should have understood it was too good to be true

I should have known you would do something unlike you.

U came as a guiding light in my life

And went by pushing me into darkness new.

Why did you have to go, why did you have to go

There aren’t any mistakes from my side that I know.

By trusting you the most in this world

Silently now I have to watch you go.

We shared so many happy moments together

I thought our relation would last forever.

But here you are, moving away from me

Should I stop you ? May be its now or never.

U are saying u have to focus on your career

But I thought our mutual trust used to remove our fear.

Its your life, who am I to stop you?

Just hope u never come where I am now..here.